Rest in Peace

Struggling to keep my mind at ease lately.

So much to think about and deal with, I wish I could be a kid again so that my life wouldnt be nearly as complicated as it is.

back in the days when getting home from school so I could watch afterschool TV Shows was my main concern,

whether or not my mom would buy me the overpriced piece of plastic that I had been wanting so bad for weeks.

not the status of my soldiers, or whether or not the financial liability report would be in to my commander on time. Not the struggle to deal with the distance of my friends, or the love in my heart which wont seem to go away.

I grow old … I grow old …
I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled.

Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach?
I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach.
I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.

I do not think that they will sing to me.

A year ago today marked the beginning of the end for someone who was very very important to me. People say that its important to stop living in the past, but I cant help it. The past is what gives us the basis for appreciating the present.

Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop.

I know that they will not sing to me.